Is it normal to not care that I might have thyroid cancer?

Nodes were found on my thyroid. My mom is freaking out and thinks I have thyroid cancer (she's a nurse who gives chemo). I've been looking up the symptoms and it turns out that I have a lot of them. When my mom told me I couldn't stop laughing. I kept thinking about the scene from Pitch Perfect where the girl has nodes. My mom was really really mad at me. I don't care though. I almost want cancer... it seems like I could finally give up. I'm so exhausted from life. I just want to be done. My mom would obviously want me to get surgeries and chemo if I had cancer but i don't want to. I've seen what it can do and it looks like it makes life harder to live. It just preserves the pain and torture. Do you think I should have the right to end my life? Why or why not? What are symptoms of thyroid cancer? Is it normal to not want to live or am I losing it?
Is it normal to not care that I might have thyroid cancer?
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