Advice for affordable and confidential help for depression/anxiety?

[Anonymous]

I've never been formally diagnosed but admittedly there is something wrong in my brain.
I dont always feel shitty but when I do its to the point where I wish I was dead.
I have thoughts of killing myself or getting into an "accident" somehow although I dont think I'll ever actually hurt myself.

Being alive feels awful at times but killing myself also isn't a feasible option.

My parents and I are struggling money wise. My mom just had open heart surgery and my dad is the only one working.

I had a job but just got fired out of the blue.
I keep applying for jobs and nothing seems promising.

No matter how hard I try it seems like nothing I do works.
I'm an utter failure.

Being as I'm jobless and we are already struggling I can't afford any medical help. [psychiatrist etc] and I don't want my family involved because my mom and dad basically all but deny anything is mentally wrong with me.
I dont blame them for denying it and I don't want to pressure them or guilt into believing me and helping me. I don't drive because I'm also admittedly irrationally afraid of it so I can't really get help outside of getting a taxi or something [only being behind the wheel is stress inducing]

Basically I'm pretty much SOL.

Unless you have advice.

[conkrete721]

Depending on how much you could afford there are places to find help in several ways. I'm going to try to help you in a few ways.

Since you don't have a job and aren't having any luck in getting one, you just have to stick to it. The reason being is giving up is not an option. Keep looking for a job and eventually you'll find one. You may even have to take a job you really don't want - call centers come to mind but they'll usually hire just about anyone - just temporarily. Sometimes you have to do things you don't want to do to get where you want to be.

Now for your depression, there are numerous forums out there that can help. Depending on how much money you still have, you can try a site call Fiverr - google it. The reason it's call Fiverr, is everything costs $5 initially. Once you're there search for counseling. That's a cheap alternative.

Now another helpful tip. The thing about Fiverr, is that anyone can do this. This is known as the gig or freelance marketplace. Since you're having trouble finding a job, you can get on Friverr or even freelancer. com and try to find work. It may be tough at first but it's a start. You never know too, if you're good at something (there are services for basically everything) you may make a lot more money than you would at the jobs you are looking for.

So while looking for jobs, try to do freelance work too. You'll improve and/or gain skills that will help with more jobs. You'll also meet new people that may lead to a job.

Keep your head up, you're going to get through this!

[JohnDoe3000]

Rule of thumb: if you have tangible reasons to feel bad then it's not a lasting, clinical depression. In any case affordable things that might help are meditation, exercise, a healthy diet, sex, doing fun things with friends and chasing goals (like learning a new language).

[Anonymous]

https://www.crisistextline.org/textline/

^that link has a list of free hotlines you can call for an issue. Those moments when you have thoughts of self-harm, you should call.

[JenSCDC]

Do research on what free mental health resources there are in your area.

[tayoker]

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