How can I loose weight?

Anonymous
I've lived with this eating disorder for about three years. I'm seventeen,really busy captain of my dance team. Last year I weighed around 100 pounds because I was going through a lot and it kind of just happened, Then, once things got better a year later I found my self at 135 and I freaked out I started looking lumpy, and I just didn't look like me. One of the girls on my dance team said "Hey I'm skinnier then you" and I'm actually really jealous, Currently having some depression problems and I'm a legit loner now days because my boyfriend went through basic in the army and now is doing school in another state, I had a guy at church come up to me and say, "You've been getting meat on your bones haven't ya? and said I've gotton a lot bigger today. I'm a bulimic half the time, (currently weight like 126) and it doesn't work. I have love handles every time I put on shorts or jeans. And I literally just want to cry, I usually only hear negative comments on my body and today I don't think I could eat a thing for the rest of the day because my own mother called me fat today and I feel so guilty about what I've ate today (Biscuit, sand witch, slice of pizza and chips) and I want to know how I can put my weight down. I'm thinking about only eating fruit and yogurt and go vegetarian. I don't know I want to look good for my boyfriend and not be the fat girl on my danceline, in my family or just fat in general. Please help I can't stop crying and I don't want to hear how fat I am anymore. I'm to busy to work out usually. And I usually try to distract my self from eating by doing something but it's not working. I just want to be beautiful and I don't know how to get it back. I'm sorry I have horrible grammar right now, please ignore it. :/
How can I loose weight?
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