My boyfriend is always giving me a hard time about my past, which, mind you, I think is mild. I lost my virginity to him. But at 15, I gave oral once to a friend with benefits. I also made out with three other strangers, drunk, at parties. I never had a boyfriend before.
This seems to bother him immensely. He says, based on this, he can't trust me, because if I go making out with strangers when I'm drunk, then I may do it again. Or that if I'm so "good" to my friends, I may cheat. He says it's important because it tells a lot abou who I am. I know I won't cheat, but he just doesn't trust me.
He has trust issues because a couple of past girlfriends cheated on him. His father abused him as a child and abandoned him. But still.
He judes me because he's always had girlfriends and never has had one night stands or drunken make out sessions with strangers. He says I've been too easy and whorish.
Later he feels awful, and has even criend, telling me how much he hates himself for being such an "idiot" for treating me like this, and for caring so much. That he's afraid this will eventually drive me away, and that he's unfair to me because he knows I'm the most perfect girl for him and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me.
But when he gets angry about it, all of that speech seems to vanish from his head. I don't know what to believe!
Also, am I such "spoled goods" because of what I did? Do I really deserve not to be trusted? I mean sure, I kissed guys I barely knew for like half an hour before, but that doesn't make me a cheater right? After all I never slept around, I saved myself for my first boyfriend, and I have never even thought about cheating on him.
I lied to him a couple of times about my past though, 'casue I foolishly wanted to avoid fights over it (when I disclosed the truth it proved to be worse, obviously). but he seems to care more about the fact that he thinks I'm easy and that if any given guy at a party asks me to kiss me, I'll give in.
This seems to bother him immensely. He says, based on this, he can't trust me, because if I go making out with strangers when I'm drunk, then I may do it again. Or that if I'm so "good" to my friends, I may cheat. He says it's important because it tells a lot abou who I am. I know I won't cheat, but he just doesn't trust me.
He has trust issues because a couple of past girlfriends cheated on him. His father abused him as a child and abandoned him. But still.
He judes me because he's always had girlfriends and never has had one night stands or drunken make out sessions with strangers. He says I've been too easy and whorish.
Later he feels awful, and has even criend, telling me how much he hates himself for being such an "idiot" for treating me like this, and for caring so much. That he's afraid this will eventually drive me away, and that he's unfair to me because he knows I'm the most perfect girl for him and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me.
But when he gets angry about it, all of that speech seems to vanish from his head. I don't know what to believe!
Also, am I such "spoled goods" because of what I did? Do I really deserve not to be trusted? I mean sure, I kissed guys I barely knew for like half an hour before, but that doesn't make me a cheater right? After all I never slept around, I saved myself for my first boyfriend, and I have never even thought about cheating on him.
I lied to him a couple of times about my past though, 'casue I foolishly wanted to avoid fights over it (when I disclosed the truth it proved to be worse, obviously). but he seems to care more about the fact that he thinks I'm easy and that if any given guy at a party asks me to kiss me, I'll give in.
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he told me I'm disgusting nad ugly, gave me details why and told me the names of girls he thinks are hotter than me, his classmates, etc, I never wanna have sex again(with him or anyone) I've always hated my body and this confirms it
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