I'm embarrassed of being Latina?

I don't like having wide hips, a big butt and darker features. Not having super straight and light hair and blue eyes.

I like white guys, and I feel inferior to my white bfs. Like the fact that they're pale and have pink things (nipples, private parts) while I'm tan and have brownish parts make them superior to me.

I do everything to look "whiter" and hide my through ethnicity. Is that fucked up?
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I feel that Latinas are too sexual and not high class at all. I want a classy guy and I don't think I'd fit in what he looks for in a girl - physically.
I'm embarrassed of being Latina?
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