we broke up a few weeks ago. I begged, kept asking to go back out, professed my love for her. All classic mistakes. Looking back, I feel really bad about all of this. I was in a bad mental space and I believe that’s why I acted that way. It was totally wrong. I want to clear the air between us. She didn’t want to block me out of her life, but ultimately blocked me on everything because I would find ways to contact her. It started with phone, then social media. Phone is unblocked kind of because my messages go to her laptop instead. When can/should I send this text? It’s a rough outline of my talking points:
“Maybe my feelings weren’t as strong for you as I thought - maybe I was obsessive with the IDEA of us - and lost control and freaked out. I know it’s crazy for me to flip flop like this. Yes, I had (and still do) have STRONG feelings for you. Love? Maybe, maybe not. Love isn’t disrespecting someone’s boundaries. Love is letting go and respecting someone’s feelings, etc.
I’m ashamed, embarrassed
I Understand if you never want to talk to me again
“Maybe my feelings weren’t as strong for you as I thought - maybe I was obsessive with the IDEA of us - and lost control and freaked out. I know it’s crazy for me to flip flop like this. Yes, I had (and still do) have STRONG feelings for you. Love? Maybe, maybe not. Love isn’t disrespecting someone’s boundaries. Love is letting go and respecting someone’s feelings, etc.
I’m ashamed, embarrassed
I Understand if you never want to talk to me again
Updates
+1 y
Part two:
Terrible excuse ; Morgan joshs girlfriend told me to do the flower idea. I agreed after she convinced me. I spent days contemplating it and kept saying she probably won’t appreciate it. She ended up convincing me it would change everything and you would love it. I genuinely was in the mindset that you wanted me to PROVE to you that not only I changed but that I did in fact care for you - as if it were a test
My mindset was so broken and I really did a lot that I simply regret.
Terrible excuse ; Morgan joshs girlfriend told me to do the flower idea. I agreed after she convinced me. I spent days contemplating it and kept saying she probably won’t appreciate it. She ended up convincing me it would change everything and you would love it. I genuinely was in the mindset that you wanted me to PROVE to you that not only I changed but that I did in fact care for you - as if it were a test
My mindset was so broken and I really did a lot that I simply regret.
Updates
+1 y
- I understand if you never want to talk to me again or be friends - but I would love to have some friendship down the line.
- I’m sorry for putting you through all of this stress on top of your schooling. It was inappropriate.
- In any case, I am changing as a person to fix ALL of this - not with the hopes of getting back together - but with the hopes of having a future relationship with someone else & the hopes of Us not having to be blocked out of each others lives.
- I’m sorry for putting you through all of this stress on top of your schooling. It was inappropriate.
- In any case, I am changing as a person to fix ALL of this - not with the hopes of getting back together - but with the hopes of having a future relationship with someone else & the hopes of Us not having to be blocked out of each others lives.
