I feel so sad and lonely?

[Anonymous]

I know I shouldn't do this in here but my life is just mess, wasting time. My family is split I got heartbreaking from my all relationships and never feel loved, my school isn't going well dont even have motivation for study can't get my mind and I cry every night. I'm like this over the 1 year can't stan anymore I thought about suicide many times. Don't know how much I can stand sorry but just wanted to share with someone cause I don't have anyone to tell I feel lonely and broken. Sorry for this.

[bredtaleth]

Damn. I hate that you feel bad. The good news is: You can still turn it around.

A handful of years ago, I randomly ended up speaking to an American woman through some browser game. We ended up writing a lot on Skype and eventually did many voice calls. This woman had a very rough life. She was raped by a family member as a little girl, had two physically abusive husbands, one mentally abusive one, and the family and friend surrounding her are all resentful people, who try to put her down, belittle her, only care for themselves and constantly try to create drama. She ended up living life surrounded by a mental armor, her feelings invisible to the world. In turns out that I was the only person she ever opened up to. Doing this allowed her to confront some of all the feelings she had kept inside. She decided that she would not stay in an abusive relationship and wanted to do better for herself. She found her voice. Having done so, life still dealt her many more blows. She has now dealt with cancer and several debilitating illnesses. I haven't spoke to her in a while because acid in her throat has taken most of her voice, and talking hurts enough that it causes her to cry. She barely has energy to make it through the work that it takes to make ends meet. She still has a hard time finding people to connect with. And yet she soldiers on, and it willing to fight her fight. She does see the positives in life, even if the negatives are always in her face.

So, imagine the odds stacked against this woman, and consider whether perhaps you have a better chance to find sunshine in your life than she does.

One thing I've noticed when people are unhappy or sad is that they often try to find happiness and validation in other people or in accomplishments. They can never find this within themselves. So, my only advice would be this: Deal with whatever ideas, feeling and experiences have lead you to think that somehow you need to be someone other than who you are. Get used to the thought that you don't have to do anything or be anything else. That you being you is okay. Only once you've realized this, go look for people are experiences that will bring you joy. Otherwise, such a search might be endless.

[TonyV]

I'm in the same boat, I'm looking into how to find a therapist now cause really I don't know to get what I want or understand why I want what I want. I thought I was depressed cause no girls would have sex with me, love me, or even give me the time of day, now I got all those things and still it just isn't enough.

I suggest you look into therapy too cause even if you find one person who loves you, like I did, I don't know if you'd really appreciate it, cause things and people don't necessarily bring joy, I'm sure you have some deeper issue that a professional may be able to help you identify, and then you can really work on it.
Good luck.

[PrettyPriya]

I'm so saddened to hear this. Have you sought counseling?

If you don't already follow me, please do. I will follow in kind. I am always available to talk. I hope to hear from you soon. Take care.

[NoOneEver]

Life is hard.

sounds like you need to listen to some good music and just surround yourself with some good food, and good people for awhile.

integrate some exercise routine into your life. And you’ll “slowly” start to heal.

it’s a process but. You have to start somewhere, when things get that rough. It’s no easy thing.

[Asker]

I know I tried this many timme but don't help

[NoOneEver]

Well I’m sure plenty here would be willing to chat with you so, just chat away if that’s what you need.

[IHateBeingaMan]

be glad that as a girl, you don't need to take the lead in anything

[Rohaan2020]

Hey m so sorry for you situation... i can understand... if u want to share m here