anyways. he told me the reason why he didn't want to be in a relationship anymore was because he curious about other things, which I get. we've only had each other since high school, we haven't been with anyone else sexually. so i understand completely that maybe "the grass is greener on the other side" and I get that there's lots to explore since we're barely 20. I've had those thoughts a few times tho, where i question if i really wanna spend the rest of my life with him, but i honestly do, I've always felt so much comfort knowing it'd be him and I at the end of the road... until it wasn't.
he said he still loves me and he said this isn't the end for us and he said he hopes he gets over this feeling so maybe it can really be us at the end of it all. it's just hard imagining him doing things with another girl. honestly, if he had just told me he fell out of love with me, it would be 10x easier since I'm not knowing that he wants to experience things with another girl.
I don't know, guess I'm just curious about your guys' input and if there's a possibility we could get back together. i wish i knew exactly what he was thinking. it's so hard, even he never thought it would come to this, but here we are :(
I mean, its possible that he doesn't find anything better than you and comes back, but there's no guarantee. If he doesn't want to stay committed to you, then that's fine, but the relationship is over until both of you decide that you want to commit to each other again.
So I wouldn't sit at home, wondering if he's coming back. If it happens, great. If it doesn't, then sitting at home is a waste of time which could be better spent finding someone who is happy to stay committed with you.