I got friendzoned and I don't want to live anymore

Anonymous
Two weeks ago, the only girl I ever cared about friendzoned me and I truly do not want to live anymore. Life is just crap, I hate it, I hate everything about it, I wish I was aborted, in fact, if I had a time machine I'd go back and kill myself on the day I was born, that's how much I utterly despise my life and myself. This one girl, she was one of the few things that made me happy, I loved her more than anything, more than myself, but, apparently I'm worth nothing to her. And please don't give me that nonsense about how "oh, but, at least she wants to be your friend" or "oh, that means you're even more special to her" that's a lie and you know it. I'm not good enough, I'm not good enough to actually be loved, just to be a little lapdog, a "friend". And if you think I only became her friend to get her, don't, I liked her because I got to know her, not the other way around. I'm just so miserable and angry, I wish everyone felt this way, I really do, I did nothing to deserve this, but I still got it anyway, I wish everyone knew how it felt to want to out a gun to your head. It's not fair, I would have done anything for her, so of course I'm, "just a friend", as if I'm less than she is. And don't give me that bs about how I'll "find someone else" or "love comes to those who wait" or anymore more nonsense about love, those are just lies for the weak, the reality is just cruel and pointless, and death is probably the best solution anyway. I don't care about any other girl, they're not her, they're worthless to me. Dying is all I really want, I don't care about what's after death, I don't care if there's nothing after death, I just don't want to be feeling this anymore. I'm a man, a pathetic excuse for one, if I was a real man, I wouldn't care. Oh well, the one girl I loved/wanted basically told me I'm worth nothing and that I'm below her, and, you know what she's right. Right now, I just want to go and die, I'm going to die alone and as a virgin anyway.
I got friendzoned and I don't want to live anymore
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