I don't want to kiss my boyfriend?

[Anonymous]

I'm really confused because I like him a lot, and I care about him a lot. I've also kissed him before and enjoyed it a lot too. I just haven't kissed him since March ever since this whole pandemic happened. We've been able to hang out a few times over these months, and each time he asks to kiss me, but I say no. It's like, I want to kiss him, but I don't want to be dumb and risk getting covid. And then sometimes I think am I using covid as an excuse not to kiss him? Or is my reasoning valid?

I also think I've developed a small fear of being intimate with someone, I'm not sure. It's just, I thought I liked kissing but now I'm not sure if I can really see myself doing that with anyone? What does that mean? Am I hesitating because it's been a long time since I've kissed my boyfriend and I'm nervous? Or do I just not see the appeal in kissing anyone anymore?

I will say I've struggled with whether or not I'm asexual, so sometimes I think I am asexual or graysexual because of these situations. But then I think, maybe I'm not? and then I wonder again. Is it bad that I don't want to kiss my boyfriend? I feel like I would if there wasn't a pandemic. Or maybe the fact that we haven't been able to spend a lot of time together makes me feel distant? And not close enough to feel comfortable kissing again? In the past I know I've definitely wanted to kiss him and enjoyed it a lot. Why is it different now? If I just went for it and kissed him, would I realize I still like it? Or would I not enjoy it? I know these are questions only I can really answer, but any input as to what I should do to figure all this stuff out would help

[Starrr01]

This is weird. You may need some therapy in my honest opinion. My roommate has a boyfriend and he comes over every few days and lives an hour away. She sees him all the time. If I was still with my boyfriend I’d be seeing him and kissing him all the time. You need to get over your fear. If you’re really that worried have him get tested but if you’re asexual then I think it’s best to leave him alone. You haven’t kissed him since March just kiss him and see how you feel. You’re making a big deal out of nothing.

[aftermydemise]

Well if you've kissed him in the past, and enjoyed it, you're probably not asexual, graysexual maybe?

You're reasoning is valid. But there's also more than 1 way to get covid. If he already has it, and you're in close proximity to him, or touch something he's contaminated, you could get it that way. I think you might be worrying a little to much about it.

You probably have anxiety about it cause it's been so long, which is understandable. Just relax and do what you're comfortable with, and what feels right to you in the moment.

I think if you kiss him, you'll find that you enjoy it just as much as you did in the past. That kinda enjoyment just doesn't disappear.

[Anonymous]

I don't blame you. One never knows. Just have to try and overcome your fear. Covid is here and a vaccine will only mask it and then again, we will need a jab yearly.

[Opinion Owner]

Thanks. x