So we have been dating for 7 years and we are both 24 years old. He is my first and I am his first also. We have a very strong and a special relationship, I literally cannot imagine my life without him. He is always there for me and I am always there for him. I will cut to the chase. The last two years I have been really insecure about our relationship and I am afraid that I might lose him. He never had any experience with other girl and that makes me really anxious, what if he wants to experience new things someday? So I started getting jealous a lot and I know I was making it hard for him. Now that he has a nice and a stable job he has made a lot of girl friends and that really bothers me as I said I tend to overthink a lot and brought this whole overthinking thing to our relationship, so we did fight a lot. He knows that I overthink but it's hard for him to understand how it works so he gets mad. The last couple of months he thought about breaking up and he told me but he changed his mind after a lot of talking, I told him that I will stop overthinking everything so much. I tried a lot but there is a certain girl that I know she likes him because she told him "you are enough for me" (even though she has a boyfriend) and she tends to talk to him a lot and open up about her mental problems to him and asking for help from him. So I took his phone without him knowing and read the messages and he got mad and we had a big fight bringing up the break up again. Disclaimer we still don't live together. He tries not to talk to the girl and he always tell me to trust him and even though I do I cannot stop overthinking. And also I took his phone while he was sleeping and it turns out he wasn't. And I know it was a pretty bad thing to check his phone..
I easily get jealous and I tend to overthink a lot. Am I toxic? Is it better for him to break up with me?
