I’ve lost interest in everything I’ve always loved doing. What can I do?

[Anonymous]

I especially feel this way when I’m dating people. It drains me so much.
Just earlier today I decided I don’t love horseback riding anymore and planned to sell my horse. I mean, that’s not exactly something I would ever do, because riding has always been my biggest passion.
I also don’t want to really go to the gym, even though I always enjoy working out.
I feel really hollow and empty, and I don’t look forward to nearly anything. I’m only 25 but feel like the rest of life is just about marriage and kids. I know marriage isn’t for me and I can’t have kids outside of that.
Im not sure how to push past this empty feeling. I considered giving my horse back to his previous owner and then using my board money I’d pay monthly towards improving my appearance (implants, Botox, filler, etc)

[t_time]

To me it sounds like depression. I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I've been through this. Don't make any irrational decisions. Talk to your doctor about medication as much as you probably don't want to take it. It helps big time!! Try seeing some counsellors. I hate seeing counsellors to be honest. But keep trying until you find the right one. You are honestly not alone in the way you feel I'm. If you have any questions or need need some help. Please don't hesitate to message me

[t_time]

I read some of your other comments about being on medication and how your mom thinks you are just pouting. Tell you the truth a lot of people think that being depressed is a made-up thing. I can tell you first-hand that it is not made up. In fact it is a real mental disorder. And I can tell you right now that to try to explain it to someone who doesn't have it they will never understand unless they get it. If your medication is not working for you. Please tell your doctor until you find the right one. I've been through several medications until I found the right one

[dustybiker]

I’m going to try not to be harsh but this strikes a nerve with me.
A horse is not an object. You’ve been lucky enough to own one. Maybe giving them back to their previous owner is the best thing.
My suggestion is to get a hobby that isn’t something that can get attached to you, love you and isn’t waiting for you to show up let them out and have fun with.
Change is good.

[Asker]

I tried to be a really good owner to him. But it’s too expensive and I’m also just not happy riding anymore.

[Anonnemas]

It's sounds like you are depressed. I lost all joy in life. Nothing was beautiful, colors were dull, food was only to survive.

Go talk to a doctor, it helps and is worth finding the color again.

[Asker]

And my work performance is going downhill too. I feel like everyone expects me to be perfect so when I fall short on something they’re so disappointed.

[Anonnemas]

First thing you need to do is cut yourself a break. Life is crazy right now and that's before you even include our own stresses. Loon at yourself in the mirror right now and say "it is what it is" then find something you like about you, smile, then go take a shower or something and relax. Tonight isn't the night to go to war but a small victory will help set you up for tomorrow.

Tomorrow you need to start looking into resources to get some help, we all need it sometimes and only the ones who think they don't need it are the ones not strong enough to seek it.

You've got this, I know you do. Just making this post shows you still have that fight in you. I'm proud of you for taking the first step so get up on that horse (no pun intended) and take the next one too.

I'm gonna reply to this in a week to check in and see how you're doing dude

[Asker]

I told my mom about how I’ve been feeling and she just said “oh” and rolled her eyes. She doesn’t care about anyone’s issues and just says they’re pouting. I feel like she expects perfection out of me, and she was a horrible/absent mom as I was growing up. So I think that part still sticks with me.

[Anonnemas]

You'll never live up to the imagined perfection she's created. Live life to make you happy, don't worry about anyone else's happiness, that's their problem not yours.

[Lauren__Rosita]

I would consider finding a counselor (they have them online I myself see one weekly) and possible your primary care provider and look into seeing if you need to get on some form of antidepressants.

[Asker]

I’m already on bupropion 150 mg XR and aderral 20 mg XR

[Lauren__Rosita]

Have you seen a counselor of any kind yet? (Also know your not alone and their are many people struggling too! The journey can be very lonely)

[Asker]

I haven’t. I just have made up my mind already that I’m unlovable and also everything I’ve done career wise or personally means nothing to me anymore.

[pixie215]

sounds like you are in a depression, maybe you need to re find who you are go through the changes, the growing pains, to come out on the other side

[jahaims]

Usually is a sign of major depression

[Iron_Man]

Take a vacation with your family