Does this make me a bad person?

Hi this is my first question here and also the sole reason why I'm here.
I'm in a long distance relationship for 5 years now and naturally there is no sex life unless she visits (i. e once a year) . This lack of action NOW, only lately, has been pushing me towards Tinder and Bumble looking for hookups. I get the yes and I proceed to ghost the match because I dont wanna cheat. I don't know what I'm doing or what I should be doing or if I should do something differently.
Does this make me a bad person?
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