My boyfriend lives in a different country and i can only see him if i go by plane. We have been in a ldr for most of our relationship, we facetime almost every night and at the beginning it was good, we would talk for hours and plan all of our future visits.
Now our communication has slowed, he doesn't tell me when he goes out for a long period of time, most of the time if I don't call him, he won't call me, of course, that bothers me but I don't want to bring it up because when I do bring stuff up, he gets mad and somehow I end up apologizing.
He is not the most understanding and loving person he did have a rough childhood, but that doesn't mean you get to treat me like garbage either, when I bring up issues I always have anxiety because I don't know if he will understand or get upset and flip it on me. He doesn't talk to me about his struggles so if something is going on, I don't know, nor will he talk to me about it.
Regardless of our issues I bought the flight ticket (which is nonrefundable) and I leave in 2 weeks when I told him I was coming he didn't sound very excited (which he blamed on being tired), he has planned a couple of things to do for us while I am with him, but seeing how he is been recently I feel like I don't want to go but I can't refund the ticket and I am a University student spending my money on seeing him, which I don't think he completely understands (namely because no one has ever done that for him, or even me for that matter) and I want to bring up these issues now but I'm afraid it will end badly and I'm stuck with a non-refundable plane ticket or do I wait till I see him in person and talk to him and see where it goes? But it is discouraging and I am not as excited to go and see him since all this stuff has happened.
