Talking to people in an environment (boys and girls)
I always hear the words "oh xxx you are so innocent" or "you look so innocent"(goodguy). I used to like hearing that. I was saying to myself "I'm so innocent, so girls love me and they keep me separate from other non-innocent men". But now I realize that innocence doesn't do shit. For example, when I want something, I say "can you give me this". I see a smile on the faces of people who hear this automatically (it is very clear that it is a sarcastic laugh). There is not much difference when talking to girls. For years, they gave silly suggestions that "you are innocent, you are not like other men, you don't swear, look, not everyone can be like you, let them be innocent" and that's enough! It came to me. I'll be 22 years old soon and I still haven't had a proper relationship with a girl, but the girls who call me "you're innocent" have always slept with mammakers who swear, sew and weave (badguys). Now I need to know how to talk to girls, meet, etc. Even high school students take girls. It's been 4 years since I finished high school!
I'm human too. I want a girl's love, attention, sexuality. I'm not a robot, you know, as an automation, I should do something for the rest of my life. But it doesn't help.
I no longer want to be innocent, I want to be evil. As people say, they really oppress the innocent, I've seen it through experience.
Can a \"devil\" friend help me?
Additional question: I feel like I was kicked out too late in life, is it really like that?
