Should I go for a relationship with him or not?

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We met on a training week at work and become really close friend around a year ago. He actually thought I was a lot younger than him but I'm actually 5 years older than him.

He had a long term girlfriend before me who also worked at the company but they broke up when she left to go uni. From what he told me she was very controlling she wouldn't allow him to see her much and would get jealous if he spent time with other people.

I was also in a long term relationship as well and I even lived with my ex. We were really good but we were always fighting over stuff. He was a lot older than me and wanted things from me that I wasn't ready for. We were both devastated when things ended because we did really love each other and he was a really good guy, I can't say a bad word against him. It's hard to speak to each other still but neither of us have bitterness towards the other.

he's only 20 and I'm 24. We both broke up around same time (3 months ago) and due to my break up I left in a awkward living conditions. He had a spare room going and needed help paying rent so he suggested I stay with him for abit until I get back on my feet.

I did think he was cute but I thought he was too young for me and needed to grow up a little especially as he'd turned 18 during covid so he'd not really experienced being a young adult much yet.

He was the one who pursued me. One day we were drinking in the kitchen and talking and he just decided to kiss me. Pushed him off me and he said he was really sorry and started to panic but he'd made things awkward between us. I sat him down and told him I kinda like him too but I'm not sure I'm ready for anything serious yet and he needs to have a life a little bit and enjoy himself before moving on to another girl. He said past couple of months he'd started to full for me and was being all gushy like a love sick puppy dog about it.

I said I need time to think about it to him now it's really awkward in the house and at work together.

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My friends said I should just keep things "casual" with him but I don't want to break his heart because I know he'd caught feelings still and I'm not that type of girl.

He is a really lovely person but I feel so conflicted. I like him but I don't think Im what's best for him in this time in his life.

I'm literally hiding in my room avoiding him eating the dinner he made me and left by the door. He's such a sweetie and I feel terrible
Should I go for a relationship with him or not?
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