Okay so I'm 25 years old, I've only had a girlfriend once in high school for a very brief period of time. Since then I dont know, it was never high on my priorities list. I have a lot going for me at the moment, I have a remote job that pays really well, I spent part of the year traveling Europe, came back to the states, and bought a house, and I'm also starting a side business that I have plans to scale into my full-time job. I'm in pretty good shape, used to be a college athlete and work out daily. I'm 5'7" if that matters. To be fair I haven't really wanted to start dating until about this year. But I've noticed women don't seem to take much interest in me. I'm starting to think maybe I'm just uglier than I thought. I don't know, to be fair I think I'm pretty bad at showing interest in women so there's a good chance they probably just think I don't like them. It doesn't help that I'm a true-to-form INTJ and I am happy by myself, like really, I like being around people but being alone doesn't bother me in the slightest. I'm rather independent in that sense and I get the feeling I come off as aloof, in-fact I wager most people perceive me that way. I think because of my lack of talking with women over the last few years and flirting (I've done very little since high school) I just dont know how anymore or something. Its fairly hard for me to open up, and I often feel frozen, not in the sense that I can't come up with words but in the sense that the conversation doesn't flow as I'd like. It feels forced with lots of small talk involved. I think maybe because I'm feeling some kind of pressure. But the odd part is I don't really feel pressure to get into a relationship. I'm still very much in the boat of 'if it happens it happens'. But I guess I would say I'm leaning more towards wanting a special someone, especially now that I have a pretty good life, I feel like I want to share it with someone.
Is there something wrong with me?
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Sorry, it's hard to put into words how I'm feeling and what I'm trying to ask. Do I just need to practice more? It feels silly to say since I want whoever my future partner is to love me for me and not a version of me that is trying to entertain them.
