Ill start,
I have Histrionic Personality Disorder and CPTSD. (just to give you insight)
I recently messaged an acquaintance's ex, that she still occasionally hooks up with. I dont know why I did it, I dont feel attracted to them in any way shape or form nor do I like them as a person after hearing awful things about them. Im not sure what my goal was.
He told her and she got drunk and blew my phone up at 12am. ( this is client&professional relationship as well ) I know I should feel bad about it but, honestly. I dont. I feel embarrassed but not guilty. I do feel slightly annoyed that she is so upset over it though. Im not sure why either.
I can't openly express or act as if I dont feel bad about it without getting called a sociopath and shunned, like I already get due to my CPTSD symptoms. I am not a sociopath. I care about people close to me and their feelings, and above all I care for animals feelings and well being.
