I used to pride myself in being humble and having realistic standards. I didn't care about the guy's income, his education didn't matter, I didn't care about the guy's job history, height, I was simply happy a guy was interested in me. I didn't have any insane expectations, I was willing to split on the first date, or go somewhere super cheap, I'd like to think about how I can positively change a man's life and generally enjoyed the idea of making a man happy but then I started seeing guys and they all treated me like shit.
We never clicked or they constantly treated me poorly, others just thought I was nice but boring and eventually left. It's depressing how two dudes I was planning on dating tried to manipulate and use me ( constantly kept harassing me for money or nudes until I have to block them because they wouldn't stop) I don't expect to be treated like a fucking princess but Jesus Christ. Men who paid to take me out were much nicer and respectful towards me then dudes who never spent a dime on me and I don't understand this because men say they don't want gold diggers and prefer splitting everything.
Right now I'm completely broke and actively choose not to date so I won't be a burden to anyone but then I realized that I'd date someone in my current circumstances if I had the income to help them.
I used to love the idea of struggling with a person or loving them when most people would leave. I'd look down on gold diggers, women who expected men to be employed or in school in order to date them, but now I'm just sitting here looking stupid because these dudes didn't even give two shits about me.
I'm surprised I'm still a virgin and not a pregnant single mother in food stamps so I consider myself lucky. But how can I find better guys to date? What am I doing wrong?
