The college day just ended for me, today- and I really liked it today. Usually, presentations aren't my "thing" and at secondary school presenting a presentation for me was like Spider-Man in Infinity War...
"I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go, sir, please, please, I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go!"
But today at college it was different. I can't really explain why- I kind of had this new found 'confidence' in me I guess. I mean a logical explanation would be, I've started college, met new people become more confident with that, I've ventured out of my own area with going to college, and overall I think the independence college gives me compared to secondary school, has made me a lot more confident as I said.
I mean, the day started like my days normally do, I woke up, did the bathroom stuff, got dressed did my hair, went downstairs, ate breakfast, packed my bag- then went to the bus stop. And as usual the bus was late. The bus ride was nice/kind of stressing about being late/funny. Funny because there was this adorable little kid who got on the bus and insisted on playing peekaboo with me- so I did and his mother was just smiling at me, but after that she put him in his pram and within an instant he turned into a screaming child....
It was like: "You're adorable, but please stop screaming."
Anyway, I arrived late at college, but I didn't get a latemark😂
And we were all told to get into groups of three, and prepare a presentation on one of the topics we have studied so far. Luckily, we chose our groups by ourselves and I paired up with two really nice girls.
I felt like I was taking on a leadership role a little bit, because I was directing them what to do, and we were all not fussed about what we had to do. I mean, I wasn't a dictator like:
"YOU MUST DO THIS"
It was more like:
Me: "What topic do you guys wanna do?"
Girl 1: I'm not really fussed.
Girl 2: Me neither.
Me: "I'm not either to be honest"
*We all sit there in silence*
Me: "Okay guys, how about we do topic 4, and you could do page 1, you could do page 2, I'll do page 3 and whoever finishes first can do page 4?"
Girl 1: "Okay, sure."
Girl 2: "Alright."
So we all wrote up what we had to write, and usually in group work, you'll hear of kids slacking leaving one kid to do everything, and then in the end they all put their names on whatever they're doing- but this wasn't one of those cases. We all put a good amount of work in making the PowerPoint.
When it was time to present though, the other two girls in my group were shy and felt really nervous about standing up in front of the class and speaking and I know what that feeling is like- I've been there, so I decided to take one for the team, and present it myself.
I was kind of nervous, lowkey shitting it you could say, and I made like a weird noise at the beginning which was kind of like sallowing a burp-ish? And what we had written on the slides were LONG so I did stutter a little reading stuff out, especially since we didn't rehearse, so I was kind of put on the spot.
As well as taking one for the team, another reason I wanted to present our presentation was because I wanted to tell everyone that 'mortgage' comes from old French/Latin, and 'mort' means death, and 'gage' means pledge, so if you get a mortgage you're in a way, getting a death pledge.
My class were actually pretty supportive of me, I was convinced I'd done poorly, but I got a big round of applause type thing, and when I went back to my table people were telling me I'd done good and "sick" - in Britain sick can be slang for good and in this context it was I usually use it in the non-slang context but others don't haha - so I felt a little better about it.
And even my teacher said that with what we wrote was pretty long, so he was kind of worried for me, but he said I delivered it well, I apparently kept everyone engaged in what I was saying too.
So I know most you don't care about what happens in my life- but I just thought I'd share this experience anyway because it was a nice experience, I mean once at secondary school I ended up crying after a presentation because I thought I'd done so badly, and I felt really nervous, embarrassed, upset- and that was only last year, so I feel like I've come a long way since then and just wanted to share it with you guys :) <3
Thank you for reading <3 :)
Little Update: It's not actually me in the Spidey costume, I was being sarcastic xD