Im a shitty worker?

[Anonymous]

I'm 25, I live at home and I wouldn't have a car if it wasn't for my mom. I'm able to pay it off to her. I pay rent and I recently got a job as a CNA in the hospital, I enjoy it but I feel like the nurses dump a lot on me. But I like it for some reason. ANYWAYS, I called in 5 times in the span of 2 and a half months. Doesn't look good, 2 of the times I had ranging headaches. I should be honored I have the position I do at the hospital as a CNA, because lots of people would KILL to have my job. I've been struggling with my depression and anxiety, and thinking of going to work stresses me out. When I get there I'm fine. I should be out on my own, there's nurses (RNs) my age and I should be that. I should be as educated and mature as them. They have their own homes and are responsible. I'm 25, and I can't be responsible? I pay rent at home, but I want to live on my own. But I'm ruining my life, I stay at home and everyone doesn't want to be around me cause I'm playing the victim card. I'm so sick of myself, I should be responsible. I'm sure my coworkers will hate me. And I'm sure I'll get fired. I was going to call my supervisor and tell her I'm sorry for calling in and was wondering if I could make up for those lost shifts. Because I do feel bad.

[Effably]

We all feel guilty for calling in sick, but you know what? Screw that.

If you are sick you are sick. If that causes problems it is on your place of employment and not you. People get sick. We all do.

During covid times and working with people who are at risk you should be applauded for giving up income to keep the patients safe.

Now that said, reality sucks sometime and it doesn't want to accommodate human beings with human issues. So always try to go. Get out the door. Make your way to your car, ready to go. If at this time you still can't, fine. But make the decision once you've done all you can to make going easier and ready.

Also. You are freaking 25. Relax woman. You could start a whole new field, get a Ph. D and then start working. And you'd still be ahead of most people.
You can take a little while and figure out what you want to do and then do it. Who will care if you've done it for 40 or 35 years when you retire? I sure would not.

There is also much more to life than being a good worker. Of course make sure you're financially sound. But really, so much more to it.

[SecretsofKB]

This... exactly this.

[Guy13]

Perhaps a counselor would help you sort some things out so that you may be successful in all things !!

[SecretsofKB]

Hey! RN at a hospital here. I know you may feel behind as a CNA but WE NEED YOU! That comes from the heart when I say it.

I'm sorry they are dumping so much on you though. Healthcare sucks to work in right now, no matter the position (unless you're admin...) and shit flows down hill. Unfortunately, CNAs end up with all the shit.

I'm a few weeks away from 26 (I feel old) and up until earlier this year, I lived with roommates. Not on my own. I just bought a house, but that's only because my partner and I were able to combine incomes.

You are not behind and you are not a shitty worker. I would honestly be dead ass surprised if they fired you. We are dying to keep our CNAs from leaving us... we sure aren't going to fire them unless they break laws at this point.

You need to take care of yourself. Believe me. DM me if you want to talk.