I dropped out of school at 16 without a GED. My life is doing fine now but I still suffer from trauma and seeking mental health treatment.
Growing up, I was the fat, awkward kid with glasses and possible autism. I was the weird kid in the TV shows that was the butt of every joke, and it justified everyone's behavior towards me.
School was a place where I never felt welcomed, appreciated, or happy. It was just a source of depression and anxiety.
I picked on a lot, humiliated, ostracized, had no friends, didn't know how to socialize, always picked last at gym and sat alone at lunch. I went to 2 schools and I was the same story.
The teachers were a part of the problem. They would do the same thing and didn't do anything to help.
I learned recently that my kindergarten teacher told the other teachers I was a "bad kid" for my social disabilities and break room gossip spread and I was singled out entirely.
I gained popularity in my first year of HS. Gained the courage to ask the popular girl to the Homecoming Dance and she said yes, until she ditched me last minute and basically embarrassed me to the whole school.
After that I slipped in a huge depression, my once honor roll grades slipped and nobody cared why. The teachers were constantly on me about it like I was a broken machine.
When I was walking down the hall a teacher grabbed me, put her arm around me and said "you better get your grades up or you'll be stuck in my class" and that's when I planned to get out of school.
After that year I convinced my mom to let me do online school, but I never did the work. The work just reminded me of all the bad memories from school. So I dropped out.
After that I lost 5 years from crippling depression. Never got the chance to live the teenage experience, never went to college.
I'm doing better now, but it still dwells on my life.
Growing up, I was the fat, awkward kid with glasses and possible autism. I was the weird kid in the TV shows that was the butt of every joke, and it justified everyone's behavior towards me.
School was a place where I never felt welcomed, appreciated, or happy. It was just a source of depression and anxiety.
I picked on a lot, humiliated, ostracized, had no friends, didn't know how to socialize, always picked last at gym and sat alone at lunch. I went to 2 schools and I was the same story.
The teachers were a part of the problem. They would do the same thing and didn't do anything to help.
I learned recently that my kindergarten teacher told the other teachers I was a "bad kid" for my social disabilities and break room gossip spread and I was singled out entirely.
I gained popularity in my first year of HS. Gained the courage to ask the popular girl to the Homecoming Dance and she said yes, until she ditched me last minute and basically embarrassed me to the whole school.
After that I slipped in a huge depression, my once honor roll grades slipped and nobody cared why. The teachers were constantly on me about it like I was a broken machine.
When I was walking down the hall a teacher grabbed me, put her arm around me and said "you better get your grades up or you'll be stuck in my class" and that's when I planned to get out of school.
After that year I convinced my mom to let me do online school, but I never did the work. The work just reminded me of all the bad memories from school. So I dropped out.
After that I lost 5 years from crippling depression. Never got the chance to live the teenage experience, never went to college.
I'm doing better now, but it still dwells on my life.
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Let it go bro, what happens in school shouldn't matter because real life doesn't start until after school, you'll most likely never see those people again and if you do they will be mature enough to feel shame when they see you, even if they don't, words only hurt if you let them hurt, the truth is that most people like that aren't very bright, unfortunately not everyone is mature and you should just see it as their own form of a disability mostly if they are older but their brain hasn't reached that maturity point yet, you must have matured a lot sooner than them and that is a win in the long run.
We all were bullied. It helped me in the job market. I am personally thankful for it and those who toughened me up by picking on me !!
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