Broken Friendship, Unbroken Memories

[justagirl5]

I remember when we first met. I tell my friends the story all the time. I felt like I finally found someone who understood me, who I could talk to about things no one else cared about.

I finally had my dream of having a sweet guy friend who cared about me. You walked me home to make sure I stayed safe. We drove around with good music playing and the car windows down. You told me your secrets, your worries, your dreams. And I told you mine.

Then, I started to fall in love with you. The way your smile was a bit crooked, the sound of your laugh, your blue eyes. We flirted a little, and I thought that maybe we were moving towards something.

But then we stopped talking like we used to. At first, I assumed it was because we were both busy. But then I found out that you met someone online. You never leave your house anymore, except when you need to. You've become obsessed with a guy that doesn't sound like the same sweet guy you are. And now he's all you care about.

You never told me. You flirted with me, but you never told me the truth. You never said you were confused. You never said you were interested in guys. I thought we shared things like that. I thought you trusted me. I never told anyone your secrets, and I never judged you. I loved you unconditionally, and I still do.

I know now that we can never be more than friends, but that's okay. I just don't want to lose you as a friend. I worry that you're not gonna be okay. I'm worried you'll get your heart broken. I'm worried we'll never talk again, and that thought alone makes me want to cry.

I have so many memories with you that make me smile. My friends notice my face light up when I tell them about these memories -- like the day we met, when I finally found someone who understood me.

[Spiorad_Aisce]

Very good take - I say that happens a lot - A person becomes really close to a another person who hasn't come to terms with their sexuality - You can see a boy/girl falling for boy/girl because they are so in synch but then the other person realises what their true orientation is. Or sometimes a same sex friend develops romantic feelings for a straight friend. Even for two straight people one person having feelings can be awkward.
My advice is first think do you want this friendship to last. If you do make sure that everybody is on same page. There is NO HOPE of a relationship and the person with feelings has to bury their attraction for the friendship to survive.

[justagirl5]

Thanks! We're kinda okay now... I just had a long talk with him the other night and while he didn't outright tell me he was gay he did tell me problems he's having and stuff like he used to. Of course he's my friend and I still love him but he's gonna be like my little brother again like he used to before I had feelings. I've always wanted a brother anyway and he looks up to me so it works out 😊

[esparc]

This did not end the way I thought it would... I hope you two make up.

[justagirl5]

Were kinda okay now:) I had a long talk with him the other night and he's starting to open up again. We'll be okay I think 😊

[Dim_121]

So are you talking about falling in love with a gay guy? Or a guy who met a girl online and changed?