I just don't know what to do, part of me says just leave it and try and forget about it, but I know that I won't forget and I can't. I have very low self-esteem about the way I look and now I can't get these images out of my head and the fact that he wants to be with them when I look totally different to them so am obviously not his type (i'm taller and fatter and these girls are short and very skinny).
Also, he is messaging this girl that he was in love just before we got together, and at the beginning of our relationship he would stay up all night talking to her on MSN whilst I was asleep next to him, and now he's been messaging her again so I can't help thinking how he wishes she would have wanted to be with him, the way he did with her.
I don't know if I'll be able to work things out with him, I don't know if I can trust him and the fact that he is lusting after all these girls just means that he doesn't find me attractive and I don't satisfy him doesn't it?
Its just hurting me so much to know that those girls are what he wants, and that's not me, and what must he think of me when he's comparing me to them? I feel sick.
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Well, if you can text him the following "I'm extraordinarily sensitive to you talking about masturbating to these other girls who are my friends. I have very low self-esteem and am extremely insecure about my appearance and weight; when you even so much as suggest or imply things like that, I end up crying all night and sometimes I just start cutting myself because you make me feel so ugly."
Then, when you're in person, just tell him you were sarcastic and that it was a really bad joke that he obviously didn't get over text message. Somehow try and coax him to send you a text message where he tells you about "him masturbating to your friends' pictures." Or just borrow his phone and text yourself "omg! I jerked off so hard to (friend's name)'s pictures, I've never came so hard in my life! you have no idea how much easier and more enjoyable it is to come when the girl you're looking at isn't fat or ugly!"
Then, please call an attorney and have him or her file an action against him for "intentional infliction of emotional distress."