I remember the first time, and so far one of the last times, that I did LSD i was just fourteen years old. I got it from a friend who liked to pretend he was cool. But he had actually never done LSD but he acted like he was an active user. I could tell he was kind of bullshitting me, especially a couple of minutes after taking a tab when he started trying to calm me down from a panic attack. I felt like I had been poisoned, my feet and tongue were flushing, I felt pressure inside my head, and i was extremely paranoid. He kept telling me it doesn't kick in that fast whenever I would ask him if that stuff was normal, which just made the paranoia that i was poisoned worse. When I said that the colors were becoming way more vivid he told me Lsd doesn't make colors anymore vivid. Soon, i began feeling bad energy coming from him. I covered my eyes because things were starting to shift around in front of me, I was scared. Nothing was under my control, whatever i saw and thought and felt was based on the context. And his presence was just bad. I looked over at him, he made this dumb arrogant face, and i shouted "stop looking at me like that". At which point he left me all alone. Ironically i started feeling very peaceful and had a decent experience. I was also telling him "you dont understand. I can't explain it." I so wanted to say "you haven't experienced this." It was very hard to control what i was saying too. The bottom line is that I've never tolerated the presence of bullshitters ever since, because they bring me bad energy.
Have you ever lacked experience and a true perspective?
When you drop acid, its really, really important you be in a place of peace both physically and mentally. Especially if you are not used to the experience. Good acid can kick in, in as short time as 15 minutes. I could always tell, after my first time, when I was crossing over. I know it feels chaotic at first especially if you have never experienced anything like it (of which, there is nothing like it), but after a while you can gain control over the experience and just enjoy. But, yeah being around nasty people or having people know you are on it and they fuck with you is not good. The bad trip can be a true nightmare. So I always arranged a place a peace for 12 hours when ever I dropped and had a blast. And I never looked at life the same way. I gained a certainty that there is more to life than what physically exists and I appreciate it a lot more, it's not pretend for me. I will say, 14 is way too young. There is no way you are prepared for it. But I went through a period in my life when I did it a lot, and had a blast. Best time of my life. I recommend camping for the experience. Nature is very soothing. But I am talking about hike in to a desolate place kind of camping, not roadside. People can make the experience bad and people are unpredictable. Good friends and good tunes is all you need.
Yes, though I often try to not talk about things I have no knowledge of. And if I do, I 9/10 times make sure that I state 'but I don't know/I have no experience with it so this is just my theory' I always enjoy hearing others express their experiences and learn from them, even if I can't share my own back.
In the end one shouldn't talk so strongly on things one doesn't have any experience with. If you've never experienced depression, you shouldn't just tell them to get over it or such. But I guess some people forget that feelings and thoughts aren't always logical and no other person experience life the same as you
I can understand you experiencing that paranoia, because your body was new to something like that. I hate it when experience users make it a bad experience for new users on anything tranquil. 🙄
My older sister left me alone on my first big brownie! 😡 I was super paranoid, shortness of breath, fat tongue, thought I was dying 🥴.
I'm sorry you had such a bad experience. Your so-called friend certainly didn't make things any better and in fact probably made them a lot worse. I've never had this happen to me but I can understand that it would be important to carefully examine the experience of another person before doing something like taking LSD or jumping out of an airplane.
Back when I was early 20's and still in the service, the government was experimenting with mind-altering drugs. LSD being one. I had considered trying it but my best friend in the CG, who was a chemist by trade, said stay away from it. I thanked him every day for that advice.
Welcome to the world of hallucinations and paranoia via a LSD trip. Had a friend of mine, back in the 70's, who was tripping and walking home he laid down and crawled a few feet before getting back up and continue walking. Asking what is up he replied "Don't you see those big purple walls with only a crawl space to get pass?
I usually try to keep my mouth shut if I don't know what I'm talking about. Sometimes my experience in other things helps me understand something i have had no experience in.
I see colors when I close my eyes. It usually looks like water at first. Very like when it reflects onto a roof during the night. But it’s dark blue and solid
