I need a nose job but I’m confused and afraid, what can I do?

Anonymous
I have been insecure about my big nose since I was 10 years old, I was bullied by my cousins, my brother and family and also by kids. I know that I’m overall I’m not ugly, I have got a nice body shape, beautiful eyes, hair, eyelashes and mouth, it’s just my nose that makes me insecure about myself. Well even my abusive ex commented on it, and my other ex he loves me and he is respectful but you know I understand the hint when he touches it and laugh about it. So I become super insecure and it’s like a disorder, I feel it doesn’t suit my face, I’m Caucasus but with an African nose. I would always go to the mirror and imagine myself with a beautiful and small nose. I talked to my family but they refused to get me a nose job. Now finally my mom has agreed and it’s my chance, cuz my family are dramatic by natural and they always seem to exaggerate things, I couldn’t believe that she agreed even though she is not still comfortable and she is still afraid but it’s like it’s my choice and she can’t force me. Now I have chosen my doctor in Istanbul, Turkey, but I’m just afraid especially when my mom tells me what if they botched your nose? You will be more insecure! Yes my family aren’t encouraging me. So It’s like I’m more afraid of them, but I’m also like afraid of the anesthesia and the results. Also all the doctor I search about some of patients were so happy about the results but the other patients are not happy at all!
I need a nose job but I’m confused and afraid, what can I do?
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