Sucks for me to even think of it, but my best friend whom I do have feelings for, is going to graduate college soon. We went to HS together and I remember how i felt happy and sad the day I saw him graduate. Happy he could move on a succeed, sad though because I thought we would grow a part. He always kept a promise to me that he would be here and never to hesitate to reach out, in fact he reaches out a lot to me. But a lot of stuff has been going on for him, he has been more depressed and anxious due to so many things like jobs, family, and moving forward. Our conversations of course have not been great-great, he is bothered by all that is going on. He also feels like a burden to me, even though for years i told him he is not. It's a hard dynamic for him he sees me as perfect always and valuable and as if he does not do anything I suck at asking for help. But we improved a lot in terms of communicating.
But recently it has been hard to just think about my best friend and not wonder how he s doing, I feel like a bother to him and I want him to get his degree before even tending to talking and all. But yeah, I just miss him. I guess I sound silly and the obvious answer is reach out, but how do you guys cope when you aren't sure what to say?
But recently it has been hard to just think about my best friend and not wonder how he s doing, I feel like a bother to him and I want him to get his degree before even tending to talking and all. But yeah, I just miss him. I guess I sound silly and the obvious answer is reach out, but how do you guys cope when you aren't sure what to say?
