For as long as I can remember I have always wanted to be a mother. I’m sure part of this probably stems from the fact that my own mother is a drug addict and wasn’t really around for the majority of my childhood. And when she was around it definitely wasn’t the best environment. My dad really stepped up to the plate for me and my brother and did the best he could. Now, here I am.. 26 almost 27 years old and I’ve still yet to find a man who is willing to have children with me. And I guess I should clarify.. I have been in a relationship with the same man for almost two years now. Children are on the table, however he said wants to wait until after 30.. and I just don’t know that I’m able to wait that long. He has a child with his ex already, so I feel like the need to have children isn’t really there for him like it is for me. It’s gotten to the point to where it’s all I think about day in and day out. I’ve even considered leaving him and doing it on my own via fertilization, however I want the whole package. I want the family and the love and the bond. The fact that I’ve never really had that and it’s what I want is driving me into a really deep depression. Has anyone else ever felt like this or have any advice on how to cope?
Has anyone else ever experienced suicidal thoughts due to not having children yet?
