I really need y'all help what should I do I've been through a lot so take it easy on me?

[Anonymous]

I graduated high school 4 years ago at 18 i gained 30 pounds over the summer i went to a local college but was getting bullied by people from high school they were calling me fat, retarded, ugly, weird and laughed at me when i walked past them and shaking their heads at me and it didn't make it any better when i got home my 'brothers' would talk down on me and bully me. My parents always disregarded my feeling so i had no one to talk to. I became depressed and dropped out of college and gained another 45 pounds i stopped taking showers and stopped taking care of my apperance i never kept a job for over 2 weeks i would cry myself to sleep people from high school no matter where i went the mall, grocery store would make fun of me and still do im 22 now i haven't celebrated any of my birthdays either. I missed on 4 year of my life from 18 years old-22 years old im lost and afraid i will never get back those years. Im broke and feel like a loser.

[misfittoy]

you aren't a loser you got beat down, it happens. now pick yourself up. 18-22 aren't a massive loss or life changing. start with your appearance start walking you dont have to pay for a gym to do it, start walking as many places as you can, get to know yourself. make out a list of very trivial things or ask things on here like whats your favorite color, fav band, movie etc, make sure to include your answer in the post whatever the question maybe. you got this

[Pleaznhim4me]

Find really educated support people. Use them to the best of your ability to help you move forward. Watch Jordan Peterson. Exercise. Practice gratitude and read self help books.