There is no one in my country with whom I can get along well except my boyfriend. Most people's outlook on life is not like mine. Yesterday we went out with my sister's friends. While my sister was talking with her friends, I realized that no matter how much time passed, I was never like the people around me. I have known my sister's friends for 5,6 years, but I have never felt close to them. And I still don't feel close. And all my life, I didn't feel close to the people around me. I also met my sister's boyfriend yesterday. I can't say that I like the relationship between my sister and her boyfriend. The relationship of her boyfriend with my sister is none of my business, but my sister and her boyfriend are more was like friends than lovers. Yesterday my sister and her lover never had physical contact with each other. Since my lover is out of town, I can't touch my lover, but if my lover were with me, I wouldn't spend a second without hugging my lover, holding my lover's hands and kissing my lover's cheeks. And also my sister calls her boyfriend by her boyfriend's name. I always address my lover with words such as "my dear love, my only lamb, my everything, my breath". My boyfriend also addresses me with words like "my panda, my bead, my lamb, the meaning of my life". My boyfriend's name is Mustafa and even when I call her by her name, I say "my Mustafa". When my boyfriend calls me by my name, she calls me "my Sıla". Even when we call each other by our names, we use words to indicate that we belong to each other. But my sister was calling her boyfriend by name only, without saying any word of ownership. This is their way of communicating all the time. Even my sister's view of love is not like mine. I think my sister thinks love is like any friendship. And most people in Turkey treat their loved ones like an ordinary person. Maybe if we had a dna test with my boyfriend and me, we would learn that we aren't Turkish. I don't even look like my family in character.
