I’ve found that I can’t seem to keep up on everything…. I don’t really talk to any of my friends these days, I have doom piles stacking up in corners of my apartment, I’m stressed and depressed and my mild OCD symptoms have been kicking into high gear…. I just…. Can’t seem to stay on top of everything….. I have to make dinner for my household of 4, clean the house, converse with my minor sister living with me, manage my adult brother’s meltdowns, do the pick ups and drop offs and grocery shopping and work and apply for a third job and somehow manage to have time and energy to tend to my husband’s needs… and I’m dropping balls everywhere… I beg my brother to just try to empty as much of the sink of dishes each night as he can and hand wash dishes and load the dishwasher and he is irritated and my husband feels neglected and my sister is sad because my two bedroom apartment is anything but my mum’s house which is minimalistic and pristine…. And I’m just exhausted and barely have the energy for making food and working and trying to keep up with everyone’s needs….. help?
You poor woman! You've just got too much on your plate. That's what it is. Most people DON'T "do all that!"
No wonder you're dropping the ball... you're trying to juggle an absurd number of balls. Just a crazy number of balls; more than any person (or clown) should ever try to keep in the air.
You do need help. Or at least you need to one way or another, empty a couple of things off of that heaping plate.
I have no idea how stressed out your husband is, but he better be stressed-the-fuck-out otherwise you need to offload some of this on him. I'm sure he's a busy guy, and you don't want to load more shit onto him... but seriously... Marriage is a partnership right? You have a lot of weight you're trying to pull (overall) is he truly pulling his share? Is he as stressed out as you are? Because if he's even a tiny-bit less stressed out than you are... you need to ask him to pick up some of the cooking, cleaning and other household stuff that he is ABLE to help you with (should you ask).
I don't know your husband. I don't know if he's a wonderful man, or a lazy piece of shit who doesn't' deserve you. Regardless... if he loves you, he WANTS you to unload some of that on him right now. He really does. Do you think he'd offer to help any way he could if he knew just HOW stressed-out you are at this moment? Of course he would. Even a shitty husband would. Fuck, I would offer to come clean your house if I could. You're stressed out to the extreme... but with such valid reason for being! If your husband is physically and psychologically fit to help you. You need to let him know you need his help.
Now, your adult brother. My suggestion is to literally (literally) copy-and-paste what you wrote here and either read it to him, send it to him, or print-it-out and hand it to him.
He will be better.
(Note. If he is not better: Open-hand-slap-the-shit outta him. Just let-him-have-it. Beat him about the neck and face as though he were a piñata. Just take out all of your stress on his stupid-selfish-face, until you're good and tired. What's he gonna do? Call the cops and tell them his sister slapped him around? I doubt it)
Your little sister... now I don't know if she's 17 or like 9. I also don't know the story that leaves her living with you. But I'm going to guess she's been through some shit--possibly recently. You're a great sister to talk to her, to try to comfort her, and to make her feel better. Just be realistic about what you're expecting of yourself. Is your sister REALLY sad because it's not like your mom's place? Whether that's something you're assuming, or even if she's straight-up saying that's the exact reason she's sad... I think you know it's not.
There's a whole lot going on there. I'm sure she wishes your place was just like your mom's. I'm sure there are all kinds of complicated emotions for her... attached to the fact that your place IS NOT your mother's place. But it's not the REASON she is sad. I suspect she is sad about a broader situation, and this is a symptom. You're doing a great job of being a sister. Don't expect you can fix all that your sister is upset about. I guarantee you she truly appreciates what you ARE doing for her. Even if it doesn't seem like she does. You'll find out when she grows up... she already knows you're a great sister. Don't put as much pressure on yourself to keep your place 'pristine' like your mom's.
I think you are already super-woman for doing all that you do. I don't know how you do all this. This is not what most people have to do. Third job? Are you kidding me?
You hang-in-there... super-stressed-out-mystery-girl. You're kinda my hero already... but you need to spread some of this weight around. You cannot do this much. It is unsustainable. You have to find ways to lessen bits of this burden. This is too much for anyone. Good luck 🙂
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First thing you gotta do is take a breather, so drop everything and take a breath, you are trying to do everything at once, you have everything in your mind and you are only one person, so do the easiest/most important things first, one thing at a time, stop jumping ahead of yourself, it will just stress you out more, focus on one thing at a time and complete it, you'll be more calm, I doubt everything you gotta do has a due date.
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