I feel like friendships never last I've had some friends I've truly loved like family but they've always ended up hurting me or we drift apart.
When I make a new friend who I feel really close to, I'm like finally I have a friend forever and they are so nice and I like them so much but then things start getting messy, sometimes things feel one sided, we disagree on stuff etc.
I made a really good friend last year and I've really been getting on with her really well. I'd say she's one of the kindest friends I've ever had but no ones prefect. She likes a really toxic dangerous guy who has treated her badly many times before but makes excuses for him but if someone else treated her like that she'd let them know she wasn't happy with it straight away. I also asked her for a pretty big favour which I understand is a lot but I have always been there for her, defended her etc and when I needed her help in my hardest time she wasn't there for me and was really shitty about it if I'm honest and is this friends with a person who said they wanted to hurt me physically for something they're not even involved In and doesn't want to hear my side of the story.
Friends just seem to bring so much drama and it felt like a gutt punch when she refused to be there for me.
I haven't told her how she made me feel because I don't want to lose her and what difference will it make but I also feel like I don't want to ever be there for her anymore when she needs me but that's kinda petty.
I have 2 amazing older sisters who I get on really well with and a great fiance who I love very much so I never too lonely. Me and my partner are looking to move away for his work and I'm considering not making any new friends this time I don't want to be dragged into someone else's life anymore and just want a quite life
