Why did I wear my girlfriends clothes?

[dalereimers]

a few weeks ago my girlfriend went with a friend on a shopping trip fow 5 or 6 hours and while she was gone i wore her clothes. I wore her skimpy clothes like her crop tops and tight shorts and her swimmer one piece and bikinis amongst other things, then i edited photos of myself to have a girls face and i put the photos of me in her clothes and of me looking like a girl in a secure folder that she couldn't get to but i screwed up and she found out and she was really angry and I'm ashamed of myself, why did i want to wear her clothes, i had problems like this years ago when we were first getting together i thought they were buried deep in the past but those burning desires lead me to be dishonest and sneaky i don't know why i couldn't tell her. I'm straight too i don't like men. My girlfriend has aksed me not to string her along this ride with me because she doesn't want to date a man who wants to wear her clothes i don't feel like i want to wear them again ot be a women but I'm worried those feeling will resurface what should i do and please don't be mean to my girlfriend she has tried to be patient and supportive i shouldn't have lied to her but she's dealing with this as best as she can and trying to help me too, what should i do? Why do i keep feeling like this, is it normal to have these phases?

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Please keep all your opinions about my girlfriend to yourself she very much loves me for who i am i don't think she deserves to be condemned because she just isn't into a feminine man, she has not asked me to change or given me a cruel ultimatum, she has said several times she wants me to be who i am but she also personally herself just can not be turned on by it she wants me to find someone who is attracted to someone who is a feminine man, please understand this and leave her alone

[shnarvin]

There's nothing wrong with that at all, honestly the only reason she should be upset is because it's her clothes. If you enjoy wearing feminine clothing, you could perhaps get some of your own, maybe even try makeup. If she honestly has a problem with you doing something you enjoy, then she might not be right. I'm an actor, I've done drag for fun, and done makeup plenty of times. I'm still a straight man who works on cars, goes shooting, and all sorts of "masculine" things. Doing something you like won't make you less of a man, and your girlfriend can deal with it.

[dalereimers]

She hasn't said she doesn't want me doing it she has said she doesn't want to date me if im into that and its fair enough she's upset that i lied to her about it for weeks she wants me to be who i am but its important I'm honest with her so we both know whether we have a future together, please leave my girlfriend alone she has delt with this as best she can its not about her not liking it, its about her not being turned on by it, she has a right to being honest about how she feels we have been in a relationship for four years and you can imagine she was shocked, she wants me to be happy but she knows she personally can not date me if i want to wear her clothes and she hasn't said i want you to stop liking it she has said she wants to end things for both our benifiets please read my question properly before you attack her

[dalereimers]

Also just to add i am not ashamed of myself because my girlfriend isn't particularly attracted to it, I'm genuinely confused as to why i keep changing in whether i am completely masculine or into makeup and girls clothes this has nothing to do with my girlfriend other than the fact i hurt her the most by lying and sneaking around

[shnarvin]

I haven't attacked anybody friend, just trying to analyze the situation and explain possibilities. Taking your girlfriend out of the equation entirely and not "attacking" her makes it much easier to explain. There's only one reason anybody does anything, because they want to do it. You don't have to be completely masculine or feminine, just do whatever makes you happy. Nobody on the planet besides you can truly understand why you want what you want. You've just gotta look inwards for the answers you already have.

[foxrider77]

I had the same feeling your age. Must be hormones. I wanted to try my gfs thong on so bad, made me so horny. I bought my own so I can not worry about asking her for hers anymore. Some girls support it, some will not. Try to bring it up in the beginning so you don’t waste both your time.

[Mollie_ruth]

I love you so much i just want you and i to be happy i don't want you to change a thing i just can't be with you anymore its not you its just personal attractions and things

[dalereimers]

I love you too I'm sorry people are having a go at you

[SereChiba]

It could be a fetish or maybe you like being feminine, which is not unheard of.

[Gedaria]

For me no been doing it most of my life...

[dalereimers]

That's great man i just personally don't want to wear clothes or makeup its not because i feel like its not normal i just don't like it I'm happy that you are being yourself

[Gedaria]

True...

[ItsTheNephilim]

Only you know about that.