The last few times my friend and I have gone for drinks with friends we tended to make out, but the last time (few months back) we went out for drinks we had sex. Even the next morning her stomach was sick so we couldn't do anything, but she stayed naked and would cuddle me and say she wanted to do it again soon.
Since then I asked about being friends with benefits and she said no because she thinks it would make things awkward. She's quite a mixed bag too, sometimes when I remotely flirt she tells me to stop because we're only friends, or other times we could accidentally touch and she pulls away because friends don't touch. Yet other times I could rub her leg, touch her ass or massage her feet and she doesn't mind, or I could say she's sexy and I'd fuck and she laughs and seems into it. Hell, we even hung out recently and were very touchy, joked about when we had sex, said if she felt tired when she's over at mine watching a movie shed happily just sleep in bed with me and I felt when we went back to mine she was open to me making a move between her legs. I didn't, mainly because I was shocked at how much she seemed to want it. But eventually her mood changed and she just moved away from me, stopped talking, watched the movie and then went home. The next time we hung out she denied saying she'd share a bed because we're not together.
We're going on holiday soon, just the two of us and we're paying for 2 beds, when I think 1 is all well need because we'll obviously fuck. I know it, all our friends know it, yet she says we're just friends and sharing would be weird.
Why does she not want to be friends with benefits when obviously any drink leads to us doing the deed anyway, she about 70% seems to enjoy my physical intimacy with her, we make lots of sex related jokes now and we'll obviously sleep together on holiday? Considering how often we hang out it would be an ideal arrangement I would think and I know she physically finds me attractive
