I am prying into my girlfriend's past...HELP

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So yet again I am upset with and jealous of my girlfriends past. She recently gave me more details. I knew she had slept with 2 guys, the first broke her heart and the second was his friend. She hasn't told me too much about the second yet but the first took her virginity and then broke up with her about a week later, they only had sex once. About a month or so after she started seeing his friend and I don't know when they had sex or how much.

Anyway she gave me some information about the first and because I am a lot better than I should be at stalking and tracking people I was able to find a picture of them at his prom, then his myspace, and several pictures of him and his other friend that she slept with. Now I find myself trying to stalk these guys and I feel terrible. I have deleted all the pictures that I downloaded and deleted him from the myspace that I use. However I still am obsessed with her past.

I feel that she is not completely over the first, she was in love with him and he took advantage of her, lied to her about his number of partners, and lied during the break up. Everytime a sad song comes on the radio she freaks out trying to change it and it makes me feel like she hasn't let go, or that something happened when they broke up (thoughts of suicide, etc) I feel that she then moved into the second relationship due to depression and wanting to be loved. I guess she hurt his feeling and he recently left for the navy, prior to leaving he would call her when she was with me and visit her a work.

I should mention that she was my first everything. f***, kiss, date, everything and I assumed when we met that she was a virgin so I feel as though I am holding her to an unfair standard. I just can't help but feel disgusted by the other guys though. It is as if I can picture them preying on her poor innocence.

Even though I know she loves me more and I am better than they could ever be I still feel uneasy. I desperately want to put this behind me but don't know how. She is very important to me but I feel so uncomfortable even kissing her knowing that another mans tongue was in her mouth.

Yes I know I am very insecure and jealous. I do not need a lecture about how she is with me now so I should be happy, because that will only make me feel worse because I absolutely cannot get this out of my mind. Her past isn't even that bad, I mean two guys who she maybe had sex with less than a dozen times and said she only had 1 mediocre orgasm (not like the ones I give her). Its just I feel like they used her and that makes me incredible angry for some reason. I want to strangle the kid who stole her virginity.

I was hoping someone had an idea on how I could end the anger that I feel towards these douche bags.
I am prying into my girlfriend's past...HELP
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