Its a cold dark place. Maybe warm and sunny outside. Inside. Its cold. Its dark. Its lonely. You have your good days, and you have your bad days. But you make sure it never will ever get to that day.
This pain is different for me. This breakup brought me to a place which I never wanted to go into or delve into. a time when I was small we always shopped in this part of town in New Jersey. And I can close my eyes and remember the stores, like I do over here. Its been probably two weeks. And this one, I can not shake off that easily. I thought 2020 would be good to me. But its not.
It starts here.
I remember this when I was a small kid. There is an area where you turn to get back onto a bridge to head back to my place in New York. As I passed this area, this song kept on playing on repeat in my head. Not to mention the area is full of Dominican people..
Then you got this. Dont ask me why, I remember as a small child when I was home from Pre-K and K this on as my Mom was making me lunch. It was a simpler time..
Now this. This is what is like my Achilles's Heel. No words needed to cut me. Play this. This is what gets me every time...
and last... You got this...
Every ex who I knew comes back to my mind in one shape or another.
you keep hoping...thinking..praying..one who actually did love you would be there. You gave 110%, did you could possibly do giving the circumstances. And be left with nothing. Hoping they would come back to you, knowing its 2020, knowing you dont know when your last day will be on this planet with this Covid...
And would you call oldfriends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?