Any thoughts about my realizing I don't want to become a manager?

I used to want it secretly so bad. But today I realized... Nah. I just want to become a mom and stay at home wife as i have for ages... I just put that desire and dream in the back of my head because i dont know any men who are good and want that and pursue me. So i figure i have to wait until it randomly happens one day and until then just try to climb the career ladder just to support myself and have security. But i dont know if i can do that manager thing. It seems like it would take even more of your life from you than just being an employee does. I work in retail. I work so much.

I feel like this workplace is a matrix. An imaginary world that exists in itself and once I leave work everyone from work is part of that matrix and that matrix cannot exist on the outside.

So im starting to feel like my workplace is fake. Sorry may this is too existential. I really am just tired of this phony world you know? I want to be a mother and wife at home. The workplace i NOT the place for me.
Any thoughts about my realizing I don't want to become a manager?
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