Friend blamed sexually assaulting me on being asleep. I want to forgive him but don't know how?

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Me and a few friends where staying at a hotel one night. I fell asleep first and due to lack of beds my male friend joined me later on. Ii woke up to him groping me inappropriately a few times. Rubbing my butt, hip, boobs and so on. I eventually left the room and confronted him the next morning.

He replied "haha honestly I wasn't sure if I dreamed you slapping me!" And apologised but there is no consequences.

I'm an assult survivor so to be betrayed by such a close friend has really messed me up. I don't want to be alone with him. Which I told and he said he understood. He talks about it so light hearted even though he knows how much it's hurt me.

I can't speak to anyone as I know they'll turn on him. My female friends definitely won't trust him again. I don't want to be the reason my whole friendship group is destroyed. But I hate that for him it was just touching me when he was asleep. For me it's this fear that I can't even trust my best friend in bed.

I don't believe that he was asleep. Who does that when fast asleep?

Friend blamed sexually assaulting me on being asleep. I want to forgive him but don't know how?
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