We met randomly on work trips. We exchanged #s, where his group invited my group to join them later. That night we met at a club. Let me explain... there was no spark, it was more like a forest fire between us, to the point we both expressed our liking for one another. If you were at the club, I would have had no idea as it felt like just him and me there. So being as responsible as we could we fought the urge to take things further being I was not looking for a hook up or anything say the least. (We had good conversation too - some deeper about life, where I explained I really am blessed and have a great life and would hate to mess it up, no sappy my husband doesn't treat me right BS).
So, the night ended and we went separate ways. The catch, I was left wondering WTF that was.. as in, I never in my life felt that intense, mutual chemistry, connection, attraction, lust, whatever you want to name it... but never has a man placed his hand on my back and electrocuted me - THAT chemistry!! So, next day I fly home and find he has searched me up on one of my professional profiles. (Due to his higher position he doesn't do FB, etc). Not just once, 2x. Then I peaked at his. Then he peaked at mine.. and then he mine... and the breadcrumbing begins. What is going through his mind? Same as me? Totally confused, questioning my contently perfect family life and wondering what that chemistry was? I feel he must have felt the connection too if he found me online. We just both would have so much to lose if we even tried pursing this - and no one has hence the game of tag we're playing. Mainly I'm just wondering what men are thinking? Was it love at first sight? Lust? The Universe bringing us together? Satan? I know I need to forget him but I don't want to.
