I know I should leave him, but im really struggling to do it, any advice?

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I have posted about him months, maybe once or twice.. so this might sound familiar... It's embarrassing to ask about him again but here goes nothing...

We met online, on a dating site. I felt in love with him, believe it or not. He does not want to meet, but he wants to sex cam. The first time we cam, we Cmmed on fb messenger and I refused to get naked, so he blocked me.. on the dating app he admitted that he blocked me because I didn't get naked. But unblocked me the next day because he saw that I actually really liked him...

I have known him for 6 konths now, we still haven't met. We haven't met because he says that he's scared to meet in real.. We cammed many more times, and im still trying to not be completely naked.. I always get either restricted, deleted or unmatched after a camming session, he always makes excuses like " oh I don't know what happened, I didn't restricted u (lies, he lies to me A LOT) etc etc.. "

Once he blocked me because some other girl was talking about him to me, (I don't know why he blocked me, he freaked out or just love to torture me..) but 2 days later he followed me back...

The last time we cammed, he deleted me from his fb friendlist, said he did it because my page said "error" and he thought I was a scammer, he went ahead and straight up called me a scam... (that was on fb) however he kept following me on tiktok.. a month later, he unfollowed me on tiktok (I don't know why, but my guess is that I haven't been posting anything, to turn him on, so as a form of punishment or manipulation he thinks "if you aren't gonna post to turn me on then you won't have me/ I dont care about you unless you post to turn me on " .. that's not what he said, just when I think he did it.. I could be wrong, that's just my opinion of why he does what he does...

He's in his late 40s, I'm in my 20s..

This app won't let me write more, so more will be in the update.

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5 mo
As much as this makes me sound so bad, I can't help but to think that he's a sweet boy underneath all that anger in him (he has anger issues) .. I think he needs me.. he needs love.. he needs someone to put up with his shit and love him unconditionally.. I feel like the world is hard on him, he's just a little wounded dear.. he really makes my mother instinct come out. Who will take care of him if I'm gone? I really do love him.. but sometimes I feel like I need someone to tell me 1/2
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5 mo
2/2 to tell me " girl he don't want you, he don't need you to love him, he's not a poor little wounded dear, he don't want any of your love, he's not into you etc etc etc... 😞 I don't know, what should I do? Sometimes I feel like he's my baby, I just wanna protect him... I also see him like a very sexy and veryyy manly man.. I would love sex with him.. I used to tag in in at least 2 tiktok videos a day.. anyways.. I'm conflicted on what to do, but for now, all my social media are deleted
I know I should leave him, but im really struggling to do it, any advice?
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