So, I haven't been in a relationship for the past 2 years as I knew I needed to heal and wanted to give myself that time. Now, focusing on guy number 1. I have known him through social media for 4 years and we have met only a handful of times. In the beginning of last year he had made his feelings known to me and I told him I'm just not in a place to be able to face that right now so I continued speaking to him day and night up until last November where I also told him I had feelings for him. Since then, I had learned he's a cocaine dealer and was stabbed in the leg in September. Before then I was out of the country so I wasn't able to see him in person to fully assess my feelings. Since, his leg had to undergo surgery we also couldn't see eachother. He then flew out and when he came back he had 5 days before another operation which would leave him bed bound. I was extremely hurt and upset that he didn't even bother to come and see me during that time he had as I was understanding up until then. His feelings are very strong to him and he kept saying over the phone "marry me" and told me he was going to tell his mum that he's found a girl he wants to marry but I talked him out of this. Nowww, during this period of time that me and him had gotten closer I've also stayed friends with a complicated history "ex" of mine of 4 years. Over the 4 years he had confessed his feelings for me around 5-7 times. Then last November we began seeing eachother more often strictly as friends. Until 3 days ago when we were together and I could just feel the chemistry was so so strong between us and I couldn't ignore it so I told him I'm feeling confused about my own feelings and was completely honest with him, as he also knows about guy 1 as I spoke to him about it as a friend. As soon as I told him this he calls me and tells me he's gonna come to see me tomorrow which bear in mind is 2 hours there and back for him, when guy 1 makes no effort but wants to marry me? Who do I choose?
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Which guy should I choose?
