Is something wrong with me?

[Anonymous]

Everytime I feel the tiniest bit sad or alone I'm noticing that my go-to is feeling insanely self conscious and self-loathing and repulsed by my body and I lose my appetite and can't bring myself to eat or drink anything that isn't water. It's not like I'm purposely starving myself like anorexics, it's just that I feel sad and lonely and that makes me feel fat and then I get angry at myself for being fat and then I lose my appetite and I don't want to eat and if someone makes me something and I even nibble on it for some reason I feel really guilty. I don't know what's wrong with me. I've lost like 10lbs in the past week because of this weirdness.-. Yet when I get upset I still feel fat and still can't manage to eat without feeling extremely guilty and sometimes I've even cried after eating. It's weird as fuck and I don't know why I'm like this. What's wrong with me? Am I going completely insane?

[FierceBrosnan]

That's dysmorphia. Depression can skew your sense of self really bad. And sadly combined it's giving you an eating disorder. When the food guilt hits channel it into something more productive. I was like that a while back myself and not eating madr the depression much worse. So instead of starving myself I started exercising. The feeling still comes and goes but not nearly as bad anymore. Something similar could help you as well.

[Asker]

Thanks man

[ImSuperBored]

sounds like an eating disorder. You should talk to your parents or see a doctor. I dont think you're crazy or anything but your eating habits aren't normal

[Asker]

But how could I have an eating disorder without knowing I have an eating disorder? Aren't those conscious decisions of convictions held in discipline and dedication to maintaining a restrictive diet? That's not the case for me at all. I'm just stressed out and feeling particularly alone since coming out as being gay and losing my family and most of my friends. I can admit to feeling some depressed, by give never heard someone feelings fat because they're depressed:/ that's why I'm so concerned I might have some sort of serious mental issue caused by something being severely literally damaged in my brain.

[GirlScoutsRevenge]

I just read your response to another reply, eating disorders are like any disorder, you don't necessarily understand you have one. Anorexic people don't see themselves properly, they have a distorted view of their bodies which is why they starve themselves.

[523206720]

Its normal to avoid food when you are depressed. A LOT of people do this but you should not hate yourself - especially for things beyond your control like what you look like etc...