So I am a teenager and I have this problem that I keep everything to myself and Ican't open up to people not even my mom. I think it might have to dowith my childhood as my parents are from a different country than the one I was born and live so I was discriminated for being from another country but I were in the same race as everybody. My parents didn't have the best jobs because they were foreign so we never mentioned their jobs. ( they don't do anything illegal or bad my mum is a cleaner and my dad a gardener) At school I was bullied about my nationality and my grades ( I had the best grades) and it was by one person who by lying turned everybody against me. Later my dad lost his job for a while and my brother was born with some problems so my mum was busy taking care of him. My parents never loved each other and always fight. At the time I was bullied I had nobody to turn to. My cousins who were older at the time teased me for being younger. Then we moved house and went to different neighborhood. My dad found a new job and I went to a new school. I got friends there, but I got a friend that ruined most of my friendships there. After that year ended I went to junior high school. I made new friendships and forgave the person who ruined my previous ones. But that person did it again and also made me fall apart from my studies. The second year I ended my friendship with that person forever and made my grades the best again. I started being friends again with the people that my friendships got ruined because of fake rumors, but I was the friend that got left behind. This year I finished the third year and still am the friend that gets left behind. I have the best grades, help my supposed friend when they need it, I am one of the better looking ones as I am tall and skinny and have a better face , but guys don't really approach as they know I am not slutty so I won't have sex with them unlike my friends. So what can I do? I feel lonely, depressed like I am missing out.
Also as kid I was pressured to be perfect at everything, so I always feel insecure and like I am gonna mess up. I am quite introverted. I don't harm myself or anything and also I can't get special help as people will think I crazy so its a no
I also have OCD I haven't been diagnosed but I have done research and have symptoms.