Im thinking of telling an old teacher Im verbally and emotionally abused?

[Anonymous]

Im really pretty sure this isn't the right place to post this, but this is one of the only online forms I use... feel free to redirect me. Anyways I feel emotionally and verbally abused, and im not very comfortable with that because I feel its my fault for not being able to handle the words better. I want to work on getting better I want to have a future where im not afraid of never waking up and being happier that way. She knew my mom and was a great teacher and was happy when I visted her, I know she inst required to help me anymore.. but do you think she could help me? Are there things I should bring Im afraid im going to chicken out and lie again saying im ok. I thought maybe writing her a letter.. is it worth it she could think im lying she could not be prepared for it... i dont want to ruin a almost happy memory of a former student. She might believe me with my spotty attendence she might be able to see how I acted back then with the knowledge I was verbally abused and beileve me. She never believed I was just lazy she knew I loved her class and felt bad when I didn't go. I have talked to therapy people.. but one of the people abusing me is one.. and I have never found comofort in words that are paid for so please dont suggest that. what should I do? should I bring a letter in case I can't say it?

[madhatters4]

I think you could reach out to her. maybe you send her a letter saying that you are struggling with something in your life and were wondering if you could meet up sometime to talk.

maybe you guys could meet for coffee or lunch and discuss things

I think most educators do hold the belief that they never stop educating or helping students... even former students

[Asker]

im not sure im comfortable taking up that much of her time, and I don't really think there's anything that can be done to fix it... I don't want to tell her and then feel required to talk to her again if it didn't help. like olderandwiser insuniated "abused" I have no bruises or voice recordings I have no proof. I am afraid the problem is me and not there words.

[madhatters4]

well what happened? there are also hotlines and non-profits who you could talk to

[Asker]

its been happening for maybe three years where I was sure of it.. or where it was much worse for me.. im afraid to be around them because of how they talk to me and what they say. There is lots of yelling and I think that those awkward times where I freak out are panic attacks.. I had a couple in school once. Yelling about school my looks and my avoidance of them are the main things they dislike... but I have found even when I make sure to go to there relgious parties and get good grades they are still displeased and tell me to voulnter more hours. to work they dont account that when i do well it might be all I can do. I dont want to talk about this id rather be a whiny brat then try and explain this, because what if im wrong I am the one who can't take there words anymore but can't move out yet. One of my brothers visted and made a joke that talking like that to me is abusive they found it so funny. im sorry I probably seem to be ranting,

[madhatters4]

so you mean your parents are the people who are potentially being abusive?

[Asker]

yes my father and step mother I am afraid I feel verbally abused and they do say things that agree with that but i think the emotional pain is more my fault then there's. I am not managing well which is why I am bringing it up I need it to change and I tried to talk to my father once but it didn't go well. I miss seeing someone happy to see me.

[OlderAndWiser]

This really doesn't make sense. We have no idea who "abused" you and what they did that you consider to be abuse.

[Asker]

my father and step mother nevermind i dont want to talk about it so I guess in a way you did help.

[madhatters4]

I think the point isn't who abused her but whether or not consulting an former teacher is an ok idea

[Anonymous]

First of all, it's NOT your fault. Your parents/guardians should never treat you like that.

Telling your former teacher is a great place to start and it would be a good idea to take a letter just in case, sometimes talking about this sort of thing is hard.

[Anonymous]

If you feel like that yes. I don't think your teacher opinion will change about you and you should try and look for help because sometimes always trying to take care of yourself will make you feel worse.