Okay, so far I haven't had a single sip of alcohol since this passed Sunday, now today, Saturday it been almost a week, and now I'm 6 days sober. I'm pretty glad with how my progress is doing, at times however it's an on and off switch of my cravings for alcohol. It's almost 8 O'clock in the morning, actually got up at 1:30 in the morning so several hours ago, I'm hyped up on caffeine, but my mind is constantly going on alcohol, I have a compulsive repetitive behavior of talking to myself, I have OCD and Asperger's, which is an Autism Spectrum Disorder, and I think the repeated thoughts and basic, unhealthy obsession with drinking is occurring, plus adding up to the point cravings is a strong symptom of Alcoholism. My mom think I haven't had her beers since a month, well I did until Sunday, I had one can of Busch Light, and for a whole week, five out of seven days from Wednesday to the following Wednesday, I've drink 36 shots of Vodka, by the last two days, I have diarrhea like bad, severe enough there was some blood in the last day of that week. Before that I was a week and a half sober, but I went back to drinking by that particular Wednesday, and I drink mainly I think it helps me with depression, but in a more unhealthy way, as it's damaged my brain cells, makes me less functioning day to day, my mind been during the periods of drinking focused on just the buzz, the buzz that Alcohol gave us, I hate and love the buzz at the same time. My mom knows about my irresponsible drinking habit, but all she does is send me up to my room for just stealing, she can't helps me with my drinking problem, I constantly tell her, "TAKE ME TO A THERAPIST!" she doesn't listens, all she said you can handle it. Alcoholism for me is HARD to handle, my mind even now is constantly focused on the drinking, mainly the buzz, I drink to get things that makes me stressed, makes me anxious, makes feel bad, I think it helps me but really doesn't due to problems it causes. What you guys say?
What's a good alternative to drinking?
