i blackout drunk each night is this bad?

i blackout drunk and usually eat over 10,000 calories a day. i drink and eat over loneliness. i do work i get home at 4 and drink over 30 beers and eat over 10,000 calories a day. i didn't drink until 21 due to the fact that i was socially isolated and couldn't get alcohol through parties or friends. I never got to go to parties or play beer pong or other fun underage drinking stuff teenagers do. i don't do anything alcohol and food is all i have is my drinking and food addiction bad
i blackout drunk each night is this bad?
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