To Be Too Skinny


To Be Too Skinny

I'm skinny.

I get it.

But what most people don't understand is calling me a stick does the same thing to my self esteem as if you tell a girl who is overweight that she looks like an orange.

Most people don't realize how mean it is.

My friends call me a stick.

I guess you could argue that I encourage it by laughing with them.

But they would never call someone an orange.

Or call someone fat.

Why is it okay to point it out when a girl is skinny but not okay when a girl is overweight?

They tell me my legs look like so thin they could break them.

But my mile time is over a minute faster than theirs.

I swim, run, and bike.

It's not that I starve myself either.

I eat when I'm hungry.

I have McDonalds.

I don't try to be skinny.

It's just the way I am.

I'm not happy with my body.

I'm not comfortable in my skin.

My insecurities plague me as I go shopping or get dressed in the morning.

Do these jeans make me look even thinner?

Can people see my bony knees through my pants?

Can people see the bones in my back when I wear this tank top?

Can they see my shoulder bones?

Maybe I should wear a jacket.

It's been about 3 or 4 years since I've worn a tank top, skirt, or pair of shorts

I know it sounds extreme, but imagine how I feel when I'm wearing sweatpants and a sweatshirt and someone tells me I look too skinny.

How do you think I would feel showing off my bare legs? Or my bare arms?

I'm skinny.

And I'm not proud of it.

To Be Too Skinny
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