Before anyone gets worried, I promise this is a (almost) joke post.
So, for a number of big reasons, last week has been quite a though week for me, as I was (and I still am) dealing with a big number of problems and issues at work and on a personal level.
I'm doing my best to handle everything in the best way I can and help out everyone, although this obviously does take some toll on me.
My girlfriend too is very busy with her new career and in helping out and taking care of as many people as she can (not only because it's her job, but also because she's really a kind and caring woman).
A couple of evenings ago the stress and tension was so dense it could have been very possible to cut it with a knife, and since my girlfriend was tired but I was in the mood for some exercise, I was setting out to do some evening jogging.
Believe me, nothing eases my tension more than some light jogging.
So, while I was getting ready to go out, my girlfriend asked if I wouldn't have preferred to stay in and watch one of our favorite slash horror movies with her. The movie in question is "our" movie in the sense that's the one we watch to top off our movie nights marathon and sometimes when we have our romantic evenings.
My girlfriend being an artist in her free time and having done a number of photography, drawing and writing related to the movie, a full essay on how she identifies with the protagonist, etc. it's easy to understand why it's a big deal for her and by proxy, for me.
However, since I was more in the mood for some fresh air, and actually needed it, I playfully joked that she could wait for me a little as I would have done only a quick couple of rounds of the park and would have been back home in time for "her creepy stuff".
She laughed as well, and I didn't realize she had taken it harsher than I thought.
We were both stressed and tired and this weekend she only wanted to cuddle, for me to hold her, etc.
And she kept asking me what "was bothering me", that I seemed "off, gloomy" etc.
In the end I told her it was all the same work and work-related and some friends stuff, and too vented out about her stress at work, and then the usual lecture about how "we can't help everyone". Also, my playful comment got her paranoid that it could be one of the reasons we haven't been intimate all week, when really we were just stressed and tired.
I have had to reassure her that it wasn't the case and apologize for it, I was lighthearted and didn't realize she'd take it seriously or that I upset her with my words.
Then of course I put on "our" movie and we made up!
Long story short, the thing I'm trying to say is to never assume, even if you have known your partner for years now.
Even if we have been in a relationship for mere months now, I have known her for almost eight years now and I always saw her as the cool, confident and level-headed type - although naturally she too has her soft spots and naturally wants to be able to lower her guard and be vulnerable with me.
Another lesson I got reminded of, is that she's not the only one working to help me out with my issues - I too have to do the same with her because she too has her own insecurities and sensibilities.
In short, that's a little something I learned (maybe more than learned, reminded of) last evening and a little lesson about why I will never call her "creepy" again, especially as a joke!
Thank you for reading!