What are my feelings for him?

Anonymous

Prepare yourself for a long story. Last year I started at the school I'm currently attending. A few weeks in, I was having a lot of emotional problems (I have undiagnosed anxiety) and problems with bullying. I had a few friends, and during study hall I confessed to my closest friend about how hard things were and I started crying (I'm a massive crybaby). The guy who sat in front of us (lets call him Bear) asked if I was okay, and I'm not sure how I replied. I left soon after. I soon discovered this Bear's bff sat with me in science, and also that I absolutely despise the bff. Like, there's no other way to say it, Bear's bff and I do not get along and have nothing in common. Bear and I didn't really speak much last year at all. This year, I have more classes with him, and I got assigned to sit with Bear and the dreaded bff in Spanish. I also got assigned a project. Awkwardness ensues and on multiple occasions, the dreaded bff noticed that Bear and I say things at the same time and then to mimic each other accidentally (unexplainable to this day). I over thought that a bit and still do. Anyway, Bear and I edited each other's English assignments (we are the highest ranked in the class and there was nobody else that wanted to read my 40+ page long novella) He liked it, I don't really remember the plot of his, I read it late at night. I asked him for a pencil once and kept if for an embarrassingly long time. Now he's just really quiet, but I have caught him looking at me. I don't know if I am in serious denial about this guy but I need some advice about how to get him out of my head because he's squatting and won't leave.

What are my feelings for him?
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