My boyfriend and I were meant to have sex today. He's been putting me off all week. We watched an anime called Dating Simulation (or something like that) and he said there we have watched a rom com?
I wanted to cuddle and he said you must be "on" referring to my period. My period is 32 days and he knows this. I may being over sensitive but I feel like 💩
We will not have sex over Christmas as we will be too tired. He doesn't like me dressing up as he said it is a waste of time. He's back to work on the 27th December and thats it I won't see him again.
I hate it when I am like this. I think he gets off on hurting me like a sick fuck! I am sorry for swearing but I am feed up for being treated this way. Like I am not a booty call. He hates it when I incsiate sex, he says he finds it not attractive 😑
I'm sorry for the rant but I am sick of being treated like this. I've tried talking he doesn't listen. I've suggested therapy he says no. It's Christmas and I feel like this. Maybe I am hormonal? Maybe he is right? I'm also sorry for apologising, ranting and repating.
The truth is I am too scared to leave. I've got no money, got loads of debt and currently unsure about my future. Also I said in a previous post that I said not to get me a present this year as he has looked after me with money.
He then goes and says "thats fine because I was never buying you a present in the first place" he has called me a gold digger many times. He's also into bb shooting and wants to buy morr fucking guns and he says "you can make that a present from you and I'll just chuck it on what you owe me"
I m realising how toxic and childish this sounds. Go to the police? I'm scared he will play the victim card. He also said a few days ago if I don't calm down "he will get the police to take me away" I don't want that either.
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I wanted to cuddle and he said you must be "on" referring to my period. My period is 32 days and he knows this. I may being over sensitive but I feel like 💩
We will not have sex over Christmas as we will be too tired. He doesn't like me dressing up as he said it is a waste of time. He's back to work on the 27th December and thats it I won't see him again.
I hate it when I am like this. I think he gets off on hurting me like a sick fuck! I am sorry for swearing but I am feed up for being treated this way. Like I am not a booty call. He hates it when I incsiate sex, he says he finds it not attractive 😑
I'm sorry for the rant but I am sick of being treated like this. I've tried talking he doesn't listen. I've suggested therapy he says no. It's Christmas and I feel like this. Maybe I am hormonal? Maybe he is right? I'm also sorry for apologising, ranting and repating.
The truth is I am too scared to leave. I've got no money, got loads of debt and currently unsure about my future. Also I said in a previous post that I said not to get me a present this year as he has looked after me with money.
He then goes and says "thats fine because I was never buying you a present in the first place" he has called me a gold digger many times. He's also into bb shooting and wants to buy morr fucking guns and he says "you can make that a present from you and I'll just chuck it on what you owe me"
I m realising how toxic and childish this sounds. Go to the police? I'm scared he will play the victim card. He also said a few days ago if I don't calm down "he will get the police to take me away" I don't want that either.
Continued in update ❤️
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I don't want to go back to work or university. I just want to shut myself away from it all and never leave the house again. And yes I need help but the NHS are over whelmed rn and I was meant to be helping 😕
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If you're still here thanks for reading my rant. Any help would be great 🙃
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